Today I was grumpy.
I woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
I’m typically a cheery, joyful person who wakes up energized and ready for the day, so this was not normal for me. I am the true definition of a morning person. As soon as my eyes open, I am AWAKE. My husband takes about two hours to become fully awake after his final alarm goes off each day – he is more of a night owl. But I typically love mornings and enjoy waking up.
Despite being a morning person, this was not the first time in my life I’ve woken up this way. We all have our moments where we aren’t quite ourselves, and even though my default is to enthusiastically arise there have been days I’ve lingered in bed longer than I would have liked to. This was one of those days.
I usually get up at 7:30am, but today I stayed in bed until 10am!
TEN! That’s twelve hours after I got into bed! I spent an entire half of the day in bed!
When I say I was grumpy, I’m not sure that fully conveys what I was feeling. It was just one of those days where everything was feeling off and without hope. There was nothing outside of my bed that was more exciting to me than what my bed offered. It’s hard to describe exactly what I was feeling or why I was feeling it. Grumpy is the word that seems most accurate, and hormones or the gray skies are probably to blame. I used to try to rush through these bad days or try to rationalize them; today I just let myself feel grumpy without asking why and knew that it would pass.
We all have bad days. Sometimes we have a couple in a row. This is just part of life, no matter how much joy or how much faith we have. If these bad days compound and last for weeks, there may be a reason to seek professional help and dive a bit deeper into the reason why.
But if it’s just once in a while, a natural rhythm of life, I wonder how we can better embrace these days as our bodies telling us to rest. Or maybe that our minds need a break. Heck, maybe even as a reminder that the world will still function without us and find comfort in knowing that there is someone else in charge. How freeing!
We can sleep in, take a break, cry, and have a bad day and the world keeps on going. The dishes can get washed tomorrow. Or, if you want to power through and do the dishes grumpily, that’s fine too! Either way, it’s going to be okay.
You’re going to be okay.
Today I was grumpy. I cried. I got nothing done. But now I feel better.
